Saturday, March 28, 2009

We aren't Traveling

Well today is the day that we were supposed to leave but we are home, mostly packed suitcase in our room, and plane tickets on hold. The peace that passes understanding feels somewhat elusive as I try to sort out why we can't go now. We got a call a few days ago that some unexpected problems with getting the necessary papers for the visa appt have come up. We may be able to go in two weeks but there is no guarantee. I feel so let down! So sad! I'm not even sure what to do with myself. I know that there are so many worse things that happen to people but right now I feel so much like the Israelites. I have promises that I know in my head that God will keep but my heart cries why have we come in to this wilderness? Will we be here forever? I hope that in some way God can use this for his glory but I would really love to hold our little boy soon!

12 comments:

Janell said...

Just heard this word the other day... "God orders our life in such a way that we have to test His promises and know that they are real and true." We're both waiting and maybe God has called us here to test His promises, to come and taste and see that He is good. Praying you'll be filled w/ peace as you wait for the paperwork!

Emily said...

Oh Laura! I'm so sorry to hear this:( We're all like the Israelites so often in our lives, wondering why we can't just have the Promised Land without the wandering in the wilderness, convinced Egypt was so much better. Hang in there...God has wonderful things in store for you and Taye!

Amanda and Co. said...

I'm so sorry you're experiencing this. It seems many of the changes in the world of Ethiopian adoption are causing longer waits. I understand the beaurocracy aspect, but I don't think they're keeping in mind that there are lives involved. Children who want their families and vice versa.
Please keep us posted as to when you can go get that precious baby of yours.

Missy said...

I'm so sorry!!

Erin said...

This just makes my heart sink! Praying for you guys and Taye.

Becky said...

I am so sorry and can't imagine the disappointment. You are in my thoughts and I hope you get to travel soon. If you travel in two weeks maybe we will get to meet in Ethiopia!

Hollie said...

Laura,

I am so sorry to hear this! Will you be switched to the April 16th date? I will be praying for you and your family. Please keep us all posted.

Anonymous said...

Laura,
He's such a Gutwein already! I mean, which one of your kids came early?? Didn't you have to wait past your due date for the other kids? Someday you can tell Taye, "just like your brother and sisters who were late for their due date and mommy had to wait, we had to wait a bit longer for you too and it was just as hard." He will be glad to hear that and feel like a part of the family. You have such a mother's heart! Half of it is in Ethiopia right now and it is painful to have a divided heart. Soon, he will be here and you will be able to say "it was worth it all."
Lorri

Jill said...

Oh man, I am so bummed for you!! I am so sorry!

We will lift you up in prayer!

Marcelle said...

I can only imagine the frustration you feel as well with impatience with "the system". Your demonstration of strength is spite of this is incredible. We love you so much and continue to lift you up in our prayers.

DawnKane said...

I just found your blog from the CHI blogsite and just recognized your son! Just to give you some encouragement since I know things are tough right now, your little boy is about the snuggliest little boy ever. We were there in January and every time we would go into the toddler room he'd run over and crawl in our lap and just smile. So sweet. Thinking of you guys.

Dawn and Kane Webber

Sara Huber said...

Ok, I didn't really have a reason to comment but the comment just ahead of mine is amazing, once again. It's crazy how everyone who has been around Taye says the same things about him. I love this little guy!!!!! And I know this doesn't even come close to what you guys are feeling...praying for you!